my company is a small software house where we are 4 Developers, 1 front end developer and 3 including me are full stack developer and 4 othere persons are working in digital marketing.
First 2 weeks were fine. Because i knew many things related to development before working in any company. Now things have totally changed , first they didn't tell me how to do things the CEO told me to develop a demo blog project using Apollo GraphQL and mongodb and Apollo client with react. I only knew about Server side logic of GraphQL but but didn't know how to work on client side. CEO told me their folder structure orally which i couldn't understand at all. When i asked for and reference project CEO said
if we provide that project to you then how you will learn new things. And i was shocked when i listened these words. Every company and person has it's own way of naming file and coding style how one can guess your coding style.
Previously i learnt working with react class based components to manage state , CEO told me to use functional components and use React Hooks. this is the first time i am using hooks in a project. But i learnet working with hooks. Okay so far things went well. But then he said use Redux in a graphql client based react project , i didn't know how to make a request to GraphQL API. and they didn't guide me how to do this. Only waited for results. And i was unable to achive my goal and he skipped that project for the time being.
Then they gave me a project of their client to go through the code. I went through it and got a vague idea of wht that project is doing.
Then CEO told me to upgrade the forms of that project to React side code, forms were built on top of Ant design version 3 to 4. And i was like 😂😭😭😂. And didn't guide me how to handle the data as all forms were Nested and dynamic and dependent on other forms.
I spent 2 days but couldn't do anything.
Do you guys think i am wrong and i am not behaving like a professional or the CEO is not sincere to me and don't want me work properly.
Does it happen to everyone who starts his/her career ? Basically they are not guiding me properly how to work on their projects.
How to deal with this depression ? Should i leave my job and stay with them ?