I remember my first job as a software engineer, people aren't nice, everybody were jerks. lol. I'm not sure if it's because I look nerdy or I don't look nerdy enough to deserve the minimum amount of respect, or was it the fact that I'm underweight, or maybe because I just look young and I don't look like I deserve the job, at this point I still don't know.
But damn, that took a toll on me. I chose this career because I enjoyed it. I'm not a genius, nor do I maintain any successful open-source library before I got a job, etc. I just find programming fun, and I'm just privately happy that I get to do it as job. But not anymore, it's funny how the thing I used to love turned to something I hate just because people are jerks.
It took me some time to recover. I fiddled around with some other technology and programming languages that I don't use for my job, trying to ignite the passion again. I treated job as job, clock-in and get out. I just want to go home and play around with programming like old times. I recovered eventually, I guess my job was affected too because shortly after being transferred to a new department, I got promoted but I bailed and moved on a month after.
That was 5 years or so ago, picked-up some lessons after that:
Don't be a jerk.
There's always so much to learn. You can't learn and master it all. Like they said, it's the journey that counts. Just enjoy the learning part.
Don't take the job personal even if others do.
Let your work speak for itself. Sooner or later, you'll get that feedback. If you're as decent as you think you are, eventually people will come around if not then it's time for some introspection, the problem might actually be you all along.
Everybody will die. It's pointless to worry about how others think about you. Just focus on being a good person for the people you care about.
I remember my first job as a software engineer, people aren't nice, everybody were jerks. lol. I'm not sure if it's because I look nerdy or I don't look nerdy enough to deserve the minimum amount of respect, or was it the fact that I'm underweight, or maybe because I just look young and I don't look like I deserve the job, at this point I still don't know.
But damn, that took a toll on me. I chose this career because I enjoyed it. I'm not a genius, nor do I maintain any successful open-source library before I got a job, etc. I just find programming fun, and I'm just privately happy that I get to do it as job. But not anymore, it's funny how the thing I used to love turned to something I hate just because people are jerks.
It took me some time to recover. I fiddled around with some other technology and programming languages that I don't use for my job, trying to ignite the passion again. I treated job as job, clock-in and get out. I just want to go home and play around with programming like old times. I recovered eventually, I guess my job was affected too because shortly after being transferred to a new department, I got promoted but I bailed and moved on a month after.
That was 5 years or so ago, picked-up some lessons after that:
Oof, I'm sorry you felt like that, must have been very difficult, I'm glad its over now though. Those are some good lessons to take in too 😃.