Since February 2022 I have been on sick leave due to Long Covid, POTS, and Chronic Fatigue. Last week I had an assessment from the government because I have been on sick leave for so long. I have no idea what the result is; I'll find out in time I guess.
It's hard to think that it's been 16 months since I was first ill, and mind blowing that I'm still only working 4 to 5 hours a day.
When I was first ill, I was so tired that I basically just collapsed on the sofa or bed, and did nothing. I didn't even have the energy to get bored at the nothing I could do. Netflix and YouTube were hit hard, but nothing really went in.
The specialist clinic that is treating me in Amsterdam tries new treatments every 6 weeks. After 3 weeks we have a chat about progress, and at the 6 week mark decide whether to continue or not before trying something else.
First they tried to get my POTS under control. So this time last year I was starting to get bored again. But still didn't have the energy, or brain capacity, to do much.
So... I thought a good option would be to work through the book I wrote back in 2022. Seeing as I wrote it, I must be able to do it. At least that was my thought process...
How wrong I was. The brain fog was so thick that I couldn't understand anything (judging from the 4 and 5 star reviews, I'm assuming this is a me now problem, and not a me then problem 😅🫣).
Without a doubt that was the lowest time of the illness. The way that I saw it was:
If I could not even understand my own book then what chance did I have at continuing with my career?
I love technology, and software development! And it's not just a career; it's been a hobby since I was in single digits! At that time I wondered if I'd ever work again.
But since autumn last year I have been slowly getting back into it. I've given some talks, streamed some coding, and other IT stuff. And, whilst it's only 4 to 5 hours a day, I am working now and starting to feel a little useful again.
It's not easy, and sometimes my brain fog means that things that should take an hour or 2 can take me a day or more. But other days I can get more done than I hoped. Ups and downs.
And that book... I can work through it again, I use it for reference for other things that I do now (the best reason to write a book!).
I even reviewed Jimmy Engström's book for him! Both a learning opportunity, and a chance to stretch my brain a little.
I also got some great news about my book. I've gotten the green light for a second edition!
I'm taking my time - it's going to be for .NET 9, so not before the end of the year. I'm updating what is there, looking at where I think I can improve my explanations, and adding some new chapters!
- Data API
- Making GitHub Workflows for infra as code, building, and deploying the code
- Adding a chapter on custom auth using Auth0
I have a long way to go, but it feels awesome to be back!
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