If you've seen me on social media, almost after few days I ask people on how they find events, and I get no responses...
Many a times I come across an event and then the Call for Proposals(CFP) has already passed, I have a lot of anxiety when it comes to Public Speaking and I get quite nervous, but I recently submitted a CFP in more than 5 places and got selected in two one was Hashicorp's Hashi Talks, the other OpenInfra and CNCF Asia.
The blunder!
I missed the HashiCorp Deadline because I never saw the email, Google Mail blunder. Luckily the HashiCorp team was okay with that but then it hit me, I didn't actually have any experience in recording talks so the guidelines they suggested were the only things that could help me and I didn't have any slides!
To be honest it was a very taxing weekend, because figuring out OBS studio was not very challenging but the equipment I had made it challenging!
Microphones are hard
I thought I have a good webcam by Lenovo, which comes with dual mics. But for some reason these didn't work that great with OBS studio and I didn't have time to wait for a collar mic.
So I had to use EasyEffects and somehow make the audio quality a bit good, didn't happen, I could still feel the choppiness.
My attention span is as short as a bulb.
Truth be told, I don't really have a great attention span, so I wrote down the points to talk about, which I kept forgetting because I can't follow word to word without sounding like a robot.
I never fixed this, it's quite present during the video.
My Anxiety and nervousness almost made me run away
The moment I saw that I was accepted the immediate thought was to run away in the other direction! WHY? because I was scared, the thought of me recording a video was something I can never imagine, people could've hated it and literally I would've been outed as a fraud, so many thoughts in my head but I was like whatever happens happens.
Why am I writing this?
Good question, I don't know either, somewhere I know there are people like me who are struggling and I want them to know that once you push through it things start to change. This is also a reminder to me of the things I have attempted so yay, here's to more learning and doing new and anxiety driven things.
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