I wanted to make my own RPG site. That was in middle school. Unfortunately, I was also very shy and insecure, and going to high school -- a high school without computer science classes, at that -- led to me stopping my self-learnings in code. I didn't want to be nerdy. (It backfired -- I was anyway! You can't fight who you are :))
Fast forward to post-college, and I restarted coding because I still wanted to build things. I'm a creator at heart.
Building programs to help other people like me learn to code -- women who "missed the boat" on majoring in CS in college, and now don't have the time or money to attend a bootcamp.
Also, Django, devops (just got promoted and trying to learn all the overwhelming things), and Big Nerd Ranch's Front End Dev book. We're working through the BNR book in a programming book club (that I started!), and we are learning so much as a group it is invigorating.
Getting women jobs in tech.
Building THINGS. And STUFF.
Don't let fear hold you back. It's cool to be afraid, just don't let it hold you back. Embrace it and talk about it, and you'll find you're not that unique.
If you wish something existed to help you in a specific way, and it doesn't, make it.
Join a learning group, or make one if there isn't one around you. The energy you get from being part of a group will propel your learning forward much faster than if you go at it alone.
You are never alone.