In less than a month my internship is going to be over. I'm scared, I'm not ready nor capable of taking a full-time job. This internship was supposed to help me to get ready for a job, but it's far from reality. I know this sounds pitiful, maybe this crushed my morale and I'm frustrated, maybe I'm exaggerating, we’ll never know.

During this time I quit a lot of things that made me happy and struggled with some others, and this pandemic doesn't make it easier for anyone. Between personal issues, family issues, the university, and being away from my loved ones broke me, at this moment I can't handle any of this.

But I learned, finally I made it and this hell it's going to be over soon. This is enough drama for you and me, so let's talk about the invaluable lessons.

1. Do not be a workaholic!

My contract says that I work from 8 AM to 5 PM from Monday to Friday. Due to my lack of experience, I allowed assignments outside of my working hours. After talking to a few friends, I noticed that this is a big NO! They encouraged me to stand up and say NO!

2. Ask questions, a lot!

This is my first experience, so they need to teach me, I was scared to ask questions, I didn't want to look like a fool until now I had the feeling that I had to know everything because they taught it to me in the university, partly I knew some things, but the rest I had to learn as time went by.

3. Ask for help, don't wait until it's too late!

I had been struggling with a lot of technical issues, but I wanted to fix them without anyone's help, this is a silly mistake. You have a team, don't waste your time and ask for help at the right moment.

4. Check your mental health!

Yes, this is the MOST important thing in the world! I'm dealing with a lot of these issues at this moment, I'm broken. Sadly the family members that I live with don't understand this and I can't get their support.

Final words

Yes, I know this looks like catharsis and not a meaningful post, these are my thoughts. It's very hard for me to write this down, I do this because I need to drain these bad feelings, plus we all are humans and have problems, I don't do this to draw attention to myself, I just want to raise people's awareness and invite them to talk about their problems.