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As a Coder What Do You Do When Everybody Doesn't Believe in You Anymore?

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What do you do when everybody doesn't believe in you anymore, alone, depressed, and losing hope? But when what you believe is so strong and you know you can make it.

I have been coding for three years now and created several projects, some wasted my money, and some wasted my time.

I don't know why I can't quit despite these upsets and setbacks. I keep going burning midnight candles daily from project to project

I have always wanted to create and see results on the spot, that's why I love to code so much and appreciate the challenges of coding. My best night's sleep is when I go to bed knowing that I solved a problem with code. And even if don't solve it then, I always know that the next morning I will have the answer, that's me.

Three years on, I don't have a job as a software engineer, and I haven't built that million dollars app yet. I'm stuck working at a job I don't like that gives me just enough to move from one month to the next.

Sometimes I sob under my pillar in the morning before I set my foot out of bed, asking myself what's wrong with me, and why I have to go through this. Why can't I make it, why haven't I made it? It's sad sometimes

Looking at the history books, it's clear that no one has ever made it easy. The most successful are the ones who have gone through the most and suffered the most setbacks and failures. This is what keeps me going, that's why I haven't given up or lost hope, but the most important thing is that I believe that I will make it. I know I will make it.

So no matter what I face every now and then, when they mock me for my failed attempts, I tap myself on my back and telling myself that "those failures were just the best lessons learned, they were the best advice no one could ever give me" And I smile at them, we laugh together and move on.

As long as I live I will always keep trying, I'm currently working on this website called Yaahpy, an image-sharing website for sharing memes. I have been working on it for a while now it's out now, we've gained some users and the good news is that Adsense has accepted the website and it will start showing ads soon, I'm yet to set them up.

Please if you get time, kindly go and check it out. I hope you enjoy it. https://yaahpy.com/ or just search for the term yaahpy it may appear as the first result.

For dreamers like me trying to figure things out, I know I'm not in a position to advise you, but let's keep grinding and someday we're gonna get there. Thank you for your time.

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