I was on my Day 55 of the #100DaysOfCode on Twitter when I felt like I could not keep doing this anymore as it felt so hopeless. I went into a deep depression.
The last couple of days of the challenge, I have had thoughts about not getting where I wanted to be fast enough which evolved into thoughts about not knowing enough, and it did not seem like I would be heading towards what I wanted to doing, making software.
Whenever I read about coding, people wrote that coding is hard. The #CNC2018 challenge went way too slow for me and we did not get to do any coding for those two weeks I was participating, it was all about planning how to code with too much thinking about how much time to spend on learning to code, which tools to use and how much money one could spend or have to start learning to code without getting to do any coding at all! (not to mention that the first assignment was to read a 38,000 words long article which used incredible difficult English for a non-English speaker such as myself to understand, particulary the humor and the slang used in the incredible super long article about coding which was a great struggle to even finish. The site also kept asking to access my webcam..?!).
I want to be a programmer, to make software, computer games and apps for the smartphone. I have been struggling for years to find the best programming language for me to learn but no one can give me any answer. I have asked computer programmers in person but none could make me any wiser, they could not even suggest any language for me to learn. So, I then decided to pick the most popular programming language of my country, Norway, which is C++. It did not go well as I got stuck big time.
I guess I will just be taking it easy from now on. Not think too much, nor looking too far ahead, and just keep on being persistent with coding, sticking with Python until I get a good hang of it, and have made some cool stuff with it. This is my plan for now.