people are expecting me to write. But I do not want to, and I hate myself for that.
First off, this is super brave of you to share. Secondly, the pressure to perform is probably mostly coming from yourself. Yes, there are people who have expectations on you; but I’d be willing to bet that you are your harshest critic. That’s at least how I am. And the only thing that has helped that is self-care. There are some descriptions of self-care techniques here that seem relevant:
First off, this is super brave of you to share. Secondly, the pressure to perform is probably mostly coming from yourself. Yes, there are people who have expectations on you; but I’d be willing to bet that you are your harshest critic. That’s at least how I am. And the only thing that has helped that is self-care. There are some descriptions of self-care techniques here that seem relevant:
Doing nothing: The cure for procrastination
Cubicle Buddha ・ Jun 26 '19 ・ 6 min read