Oh man, I was reading this and crying. This is all about me as well. I am 30 years old, for 15 years "in fields", being a lone wolf, making projects for somebody else, wasting personal time for other people dreams. I feel you man!
For 2019 my personal goal is to go professionally social as much as possible, because I am sick and tired of being just a screw in somebody else's machine, want to do something for myself. Imperfect, average looking, but mine and only mine.
Well I'm glad I could push you forward and help you relate. I don't mind working for others as it's been nice to have a steady job. But you're right, we shouldn't have to just depend on them and create for them. We should create for ourselves too!
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